Downtime.... whats that??

Well im back at home now, after being gone for a month and here is my current schedule. Ive been home for a week, now I leave Monday for a much earned Vacation in Florida.. ohh but I have to work this weeked before I can leave. After florida, Im home for another week then I leave and go to Wisconsin for another Month! I got to ride my motorcycle a total of 15 miles so far and Im not very happy about that...

So the weekend I get back from Florida I have to go to South Bend and build the new engine for my car since I havent had a car in almost 4 months which is a huge pain in the ass..

So hopefully when I get back from Florida I can get the new engine done in time to drive it Wisconsin! Ill add some more things to my blog here shortly, its going to be under construction so I can fix the ugly background that found its way on there! Talk to you soon!

The Unit

Recently I began watching a show called The Unit. The show is no longer on the air, but I'm hoping it gets picked up again. Over the last 5 days I watched the entire 4th season (which is the last season.) This show is like a drug, its addicting to me, mainly because it hits really close to home. There's to sides to the show, the men in the Unit, and there wives and children whom they constantly leave at home so they can defend their great country. The wives use Military lingo, and have even been trained by their husbands to adapt and over come as if they were soldiers themselves. Sometimes being an Army wife is just as hard, if not harder then being the soldier. On the other hand, speaking for most of the Army men at some point or another we have offered the women we love a way out, and warned them what the life of an Army wife would be like. Soo they pretty much knew what they were getting into. As a soldier if you have a strong support system at home, and a beautiful woman to go home to you can focus on the mission and stay strong for your country... because " a distracted soldier, is a dead soldier."

I love the following quote, everyone should read this at some point in their lives, not only read it but comprehend it.


"It is the soldier, not the reporter, Who has given us freedom of the press.
It is the soldier, not the poet, Who has given us freedom of speech.
It is the soldier, not the campus organizer, Who has given us the freedom to demonstrate.
It is the soldier, Who salutes the flag, Who serves beneath the flag, And whose coffin is draped by the flag, Who allows the protester to burn the flag." - Father Dennis Edward O'Brian, USMC

Not What I Planned

This wasn't the post I planned on publishing tonight but it will do for now.

I'm sick of of not sleeping, and when I do sleep I'm sick of the "dreams" I have.. I thought they were called dreams for a reason? Aren't dreams supposed to be things that you wish and hope for. Well when I fall asleep, the things I dream about aren't things that I Wish or Hope for. As a matter of fact, the things I dream about are things I wouldn't wish upon anyone.
Most of the time its things that have already happened, and things that I don't want to re-live. So why do I constantly re-live them in my dreams?? In my most peaceful state, why do I think about the things I cannot change? The very same things I think about when I'm awake more then I would like to. I don't want to fall asleep and think anymore. I want to fall asleep and forget the world, forget the past, and forget the things I cannot change. I wish I could have the strength to accept the things I cannot change and maybe in the future change the things I cannot accept..